Why should we wait for something that may or may not be possible in the end? Is it worth it? I don't think it's a matter of if its worth it but of how much we really want it. I have liked my dear friend for four years and he has liked me for the same. When do u stop waiting? I know I will have to either have him in my life as something more than a friend or completely get rid of him. I care too much about him to marry any other guy while he is in my life. We have talked about marriage, dating, and other things but we have never really been anything other than friends. About a year ago we were what both of us wants in a spouse but now adays he changes a few things of what he wants. For a while there I would tweak myself to fit this new profound wants but each time it was never enough. It is always never enough. I have gotten to the point to where I have gotten tired of waiting for some probable thing to happen with him.
The crazy thing is everyone can see how much he cares about me but I don't think he does. I'm not for sure he will ever realize it until I'm gone and by that point I will be married to someone else. But to get to that point where I can marry someone else I will have to get rid of him out of my life. It's about time for me to move on from this incredible guy. My problem with this ultimatum is I want him to care about me more than a friend, I want this more than anything I have ever wanted in my life. So how do I convince myself to walk way from someone who I care about so much? I guess I will have to just do it and not let anything creep into my mind while I do it except my objective.
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