Choices

    I love how I go from living in Kentucky to moving out west and two years after being here I almost get proposed twice not even a year after the other. Me turning down pretty much both to have the chance to serve my mission. I am very blessed to have these opportunities but in reality was it a mistake? In some eyes it seems to be a horrible decision but what type of person am I to put my needs before the Lords? He would have never gave me this desire to serve if I was not meant to.
    It seems alot of people are so worried about getting married they forget the bigger picture. Yes in reality getting married is in the end the desired result but do people seem to rush it or take too long to take the plunge? I tried to explain to the first that what was missing was the spirit in our relationship. He was focused more on other things like stopping me from going on my mission because he was "too selfish" to let me serve the Lord and he was so consumed on making money. Don't get me wrong this desire is awesome but you should put the Lord first above making money. You can have all the money in the world and still be miserable without the Lord in your life. You have to figure out what matters most in this life. Worldly things or Godly things, Right here right now happiness or eternal happiness?
    Now for the most amazing man I have ever had the privilege of dating supports my decision and who has respected me in every way unlike the other. I find it harder to leave this time. Maybe it was his boldness having this serious talk with us only having the chance of being together for just a couple weeks, I will admit it was quite refreshing. To have a real man sharing his feelings and us discussing both of our feelings. The first man I almost got engaged to just assumed I would say yes without a doubt, because in his meaty eyes any woman my age would jump at a marriage proposal. I guess he didn't know me as well as he thought he did.
      I believe in something more in this life than the mediocre expectations of others before me. I believe in something more real, more powerful, more beautiful than you can ever imagine. When I love, I love with all my heart. I could see me actually falling for this second man. It would take me awhile but I could see it happening after several months of being together. Good thing I wont have to think of silly boys for 18 months. :) I have made my choice and it is official, I'm going on a mission.

True Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder?

  Beauty is defined as the quality present in a thing or person that gives intense pleasure or deep satisfaction to the mind, whether arising from sensory manifestations (as shape, color, sound, etc.), a meaningful design or pattern, or something else (as a personality in which high spiritual qualities are manifest). What makes a person truly beautiful? Is it perfect hair, skin, teeth, body, an a symmetrical face? Or could it be more than that? There has been much debate on what makes someone beautiful but in my opinion it is more than what you see on the outside but it is much deeper than that. I know a ton of people who are beautiful on the outside but ugly on the inside making them 10 times less attractive making that beauty they had disappear. There is more to a person than what is skin deep.

Do you really know me as well as you think you do?

  So many of you do not know how silly I am at times. Usually only my closest friends know but I am feeling generous to you all today. So I had a very special moment today. (Please note I am really sick and quite out of it) My sister and I decided to start working out everyday. Well I promised my docs at chamber's medical group I would baby my neck. So I got the bright idea that maybe if I wore a neck brace I could work out more. As I work out for several mins I feel sore like I had just hardcore worked out for about an hour. I also realized that a neck brace helps with nothing while working out. I also learned that maybe it is not the best idea to work out when you are sick. haha
  Now onto another part of my day I am looking at a camera (taking pictures of myself and such) then all the sudden the security censor thing starts going off like crazy. I quickly put it back and look around trying to figure out how to fix it. I look around and all these ppl stop to stare at me. I quickly stop trying to fix it and walk away. 
  You know how they have samples at Sam's club right? Well I walk right up to this table that had this man selling this weight loss drink and he had samples out. So I go to drink it. Look at the sign as it is in my mouth and it has coffee bean and tea in it. I spit it back in the cup and pretend it tasted so good. Continued in good conversation with the man and slickly threw it away. 

  On a normal note I found some unique wood glasses on my desperate search to find a wicked new pair. So here is a pic of them. :) Hope you all enjoyed a little bit into my simple but sillyish day today.