Run until you can not run anymore

  Many of you don't know this but ever since I was a young girl when I would get really close to someone I would either get scared and run away or do something to screw it up. This could be because the people who I have loved or cared for the most have hurt me or maybe I secretly don't think I deserve to have something great in my life. Which ever it is the one thing I have tried to change is this. I have come a long ways from the numb person I used to be to this person so full of life. God put trails and people in our lives to mold us into the people he wants us to be. Its a matter if we take it as a chance to learn and grow or become stuck in the same rut that our miserable brother is in. People say we don't have a choice in the matter but in truth we do. We choose to let Satan control us and get inside our heads. He doesn't have some magic key to get into the gates of our minds, the only way he can get in is if we give him that key. (Which at times we don't realize we have done this.)

<This song describes how I'm feeling right now. I'm tired of waiting on a man to come and save me. I gotta grow up be someone. Draw a map, find a path, take a breath and run. Run, run, run, run.. Lol I feel like I have been running for a long time now>

  Anyways I have started to let people in and even though I have been hurt a few times I will admit it is ten times better than not feeling any thing at all. :)  I suggest you all do the same!