Everything happens for a reason

  Many times people blame God and resent him for the things that happen in their lives, when in truth they should be thankful for them. Even though they may be too hard for anyone to bare the thing to remember is we can bare them. We may travel through gunk and mud but we all need to remember to hold our heads high and look to the Lord. We may not know now why certain things happen but we will one day know why we had to go through certain things in this life. Always remember you will one day know these things. God puts things in our lives to make us more like unto him, it depends on how we handle these things if we truly are converted in our hearts to God or not. Cherish life this, you never know what day will be your last.

In the blink of an eye your whole life can change

  Not many of you know this but in March 2005 or 2006 I almost died in a car accident. The police told us the car flipped 5 times and it was a miracle we were alive and even more of a miracle that we only got a few cuts and bruises from it. They told us if we did not have our seat belts on we would have been killed. Little does everyone know that a minuet before the crash I did not have my seat belt on. I was laying down to take a nap in the back seat and as I started to drift into slumber land I got this feeling to put on my seat belt. At first I just shrugged it off but the feeling just kept getting stronger and stronger until (without even noticing) I sat up and quickly put my seat belt on. After I did this I was wide awake in shock because I did not tell myself to put my seat belt on or to even sit up. I was focused on trying to go to sleep. All I thought was "wow what the crap just happened?!" A minuet later we got in a car accident that totaled the car that should have killed me.

  Some might say I'm just lucky which it could be, or might it be God saved me. If God saved me than  what did he save me for? What was the reason he saved my life? I was the purest I had ever been at that time, So why would he save a 14/15 year old girl? This question has haunted me for the longest time. Why would he save a girl like me? God put trials in my life to mold me into the person he wants me to be, but how could I ever forget such an amazing gift and what did I do to thank him for it? I later on spat in his face. Back in the day I did not love myself and when things got rough I would question this and wish he would have let me die that day. The older I have gotten the more and more I thank him for this amazing blessing, the blessing of life. So many of us take this tiny thing for granted and I know I have. Live life to the fullest, take chances, make what time u have left on this earth worth while. I know I am going to start to appreciate it more and do everything in my power to figure out and do what ever God saved me for. I pray u all do the same :)

Run until you can not run anymore

  Many of you don't know this but ever since I was a young girl when I would get really close to someone I would either get scared and run away or do something to screw it up. This could be because the people who I have loved or cared for the most have hurt me or maybe I secretly don't think I deserve to have something great in my life. Which ever it is the one thing I have tried to change is this. I have come a long ways from the numb person I used to be to this person so full of life. God put trails and people in our lives to mold us into the people he wants us to be. Its a matter if we take it as a chance to learn and grow or become stuck in the same rut that our miserable brother is in. People say we don't have a choice in the matter but in truth we do. We choose to let Satan control us and get inside our heads. He doesn't have some magic key to get into the gates of our minds, the only way he can get in is if we give him that key. (Which at times we don't realize we have done this.)

<This song describes how I'm feeling right now. I'm tired of waiting on a man to come and save me. I gotta grow up be someone. Draw a map, find a path, take a breath and run. Run, run, run, run.. Lol I feel like I have been running for a long time now>

  Anyways I have started to let people in and even though I have been hurt a few times I will admit it is ten times better than not feeling any thing at all. :)  I suggest you all do the same!

Love.. after all doesn't it matter the most?

  What characteristics makes a good missionary? Is it the amount they tracked? Or the amount of baptisms they have? No its the time, effort, and endless love for the people who reject them but they would still help them anyway they could with out any intent for a reward. The missionaries who put their heart and soul into the work, they don't always have the "most baptisms" but they are the ones who touch the most lives that change and soften the hardest of hearts. Like Ammon in the Book of Mormon  Alma chapter 17- 21. How can we today learn from such great missionary work? By our example and love for others we can influence the lives of people in drastic ways. Maybe not covert them to our religion (even though as missionaries that is the reason we are out to bring people unto the gospel) but help influence their lives to allow them to become their best selves. The key is to become Christ like and love everyone the way Christ loves us. Love never fails you..